Oct 11, 2012

Trepidation

 
Trepidation: a nervous or fearful feeling of uncertain agitation:
apprehension <trepidation about starting a new job>
 
This is exactly how I've been feeling lately.  VERY often!  Growing Bungalov into something bigger than a little old blog is so scary for me.  Often I worry if I can really do this and wonder if people truly like what I do and what I have to offer.  I enjoy the things I write about and create to sell but am I the only one?  Will I ever REALLY  know how others feel?  People tell me all the time they enjoy what I'm doing but are they just being nice?  Like when you get that awful haircut and everyone says "aww you look great".  OK yeah right!!!  You know yourself it looks awful...
 
I've always thought having my own business would be awesome. I've come up with many ideas before but then chicken out actually moving forward with it.  It's always easier to talk about it but doing something about it is another story.  And to be honest those ideas were really not good ones.  Bungalov, though, is so different.  I feel good about it and like I can really make this work.  Other blogs I read are so inspirational to me and make me feel like "gosh maybe I do have a talent here".  Maybe the things I have ALWAYS enjoyed doing are what I can make a business out of.  I LOVe to paint so why not paint furniture?  I LOVe to go to thrift stores, garage sales etc. so why not look for all sorts of fun treasures to sell?  I'm a hard worker too so if I have such a passion I know I can push through the difficult times.  But all said and done I have this awful trepidation.  Who wants to fail at something?  That is the worst feeling.  I would feel so embarrassed.
 
Sharing all this personal sappy info is a promise to myself and YOU that I am going to do this and try VERY hard to not fail.  I'm not one to share my personal feelings with many people and so spilling the beans on the Internet (OMG am I nuts?) is out of my norm.  It is one thing to share happy insights on here but not my fears... 
 
What a relief, though, to get this out of my system and out in the open.
 
Sigh...
 
Hope you are having a happy Thursday  :)

2 comments:

  1. Go for it, Jenny! You cannot fail at something you are so good at. I support you and believe in you 100%!

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  2. “Defeat is not the worst of failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.”
    ― George E. Woodberry

    You are already doing it...just keep going...xo
    Lu

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